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When Hank was brand new I couldn’t wait to give him a bath.

Even before he was born it was one of the things I was most excited for.

I remember my mom bathing my siblings when they were newborns.

I remember thinking it was so funny that they were tiny enough to take a bath in the sink.

I remember how the soap smelled and the soft, tiny washcloths.

She was so careful and they all loved the warm water.

Hank’s first bath was one of the sweetest moments of my life.

He loved it.

He floated and relaxed in the water.

He even fell asleep just before it was time to get out.

As I washed his face I noticed there was a little dark smudge above his eye.

I softly tried to remove it with the washcloth.

Nothing happened.

I rubbed a little harder.

Still nothing.

I started to worry it might be a bruise or something when I noticed a matching smudge above his other eye.

Eyebrows.

I was trying to scrub off his tiny eyebrows.

Jake and I just laughed.

We truly had no idea what we were doing.

But we loved every minute.

Hank is a great teacher.

Every day I learn something from him.

Something about goodness.

About love.

About tenderness.

About promises.

He makes me-

more.

That’s his favorite word.

“More”.

He says it when he wants more food or more water.

He says it when he wants more books or more songs.

He says it when he wants more of me or more of Jake.

More.

Tomorrow we start a new year.

As I reflect and look forward all I can think of is-

more.

I just want more, I think.

More Diet Coke and audiobooks and car washes with Jake.

More playing in the snow or with my food or with the mirror or in laundry baskets with Hank.

More bath times.

More bacon and eggs for dinner.

More family pictures.

More Hank hugs and kisses and scrunchy nose faces.

More flowers.

More notes.

More Jake and Maddie.

More home.

More time.

More good.

More Jesus.

Just more.

More fit for the kingdom
More used would I be
More blessed and holy--
More, Savior, like thee.

So here’s to a New Year.

To more.

Though I can’t imagine things could get any happier than this.